Saturday, May 19, 2012

Special Treatments Ward : Poem In Your Post

                                I
So this is where the children come to die,
hidden on the hospital’s highest floor.
They wear their bandages like uniforms
and pull their iv rigs along the hall
with slow and careful steps. Or bald and pale,
they lie in bright pajamas on their beds,
watching another world on a screen.

The mothers spend their nights inside the ward,
sleeping on chairs that fold out into beds,
too small to lie in comfort. Soon they slip
beside their children, as if they might mesh
those small bruised bodies back into their flesh.
Instinctively they feel that love so strong
protects a child. Each morning proves them wrong.

No one chooses to be here. We play the parts
that we are given—horrible as they are.
We try to play them well, whatever that means.
We need to talk, though talking breaks our hearts.
The doctors come and go like oracles,
their manner cool, omniscient, and oblique.
There is a word that no one ever speaks.


                                        II

I put this poem aside twelve years ago
because I could not bear remembering
   the faces it evoked, and every line
seemed—still seems—so inadequate and grim.
What right had I, whose son had walked away,
to speak for those who died? And I’ll admit
I wanted to forget. I’d lost one child
and couldn’t bear to watch another die.

Not just the silent boy who shared our room,
but even the bird-thin figures dimly glimpsed
shuffling deliberately, disjointedly
like ancient soldiers after a parade.

Whatever strength the task required I lacked.
No well-stitched words could suture shut these wounds.
And so I stopped...
But there are poems we do not choose to write.


                                        III

The children visit me, not just in dream,
appearing suddenly, silently—
insistent, unprovoked, unwelcome.

They’ve taken off their milky bandages
to show the raw, red lesions they still bear.
Risen they are healed but not made whole.

A few I recognize, untouched by years.
I cannot name them—their faces pale and gray
like ashes fallen from a distant fire.

What use am I to them, almost a stranger?
I cannot wake them from their satin beds.
    Why do they seek me? They never speak.
   And vagrant sorrow cannot bless the dead.

                               - Dana Gioia
So I've been engrossed in John Green's The Fault In Our Stars this week, yet another stellar offering from this young adult author whose work appeals to readers of all ages.  The scenario's a tad more bleak than his previous offerings as the novel's two central characters meet in a cancer support group for teens, yet Green never dips into melodrama or smarminess.  Instead, in his characteristic fashion, he offers up utterly appropriate wit and humor and pathos that's never overdone through two characters whom we'd all wish to know, for however brief a time.
Then, in the way of happy coincidence, my mom sent me an email highlighting the work of Dana Gioia.  Frankly, I hadn't heard of him, so I checked out his work on a variety of sites, and then stumbled upon this one.  His poetry is immediately approachable, so if you enjoy poems you can access on first read, you might want to check out his work: 
            *  His poems at Poetry Foundation
            *  His own website (You'll find some fine essays there too, and links to his favorite poets, many of whom you'll recognize from previous Poem In Your Posts.)
Who's your most recent "I can't believe I've never read"?  What poem(s) did you stumble upon this week?
Thanks, Mom.  And MFB,
L

3 comments:

Lorren Lemmons said...

This poem just broke my heart! I just finished my first night shift on the children's cancer unit. This poem will definitely be in my mind for my next shift.

Dana - Let's Book It said...

I cried. Love the poem. I actually love your blog and am spotlighting it as my blog of the week this week. http://letsbookit.blogspot.ca/2012/05/blog-of-week-what-she-read.html

Laurie said...

Lorren - I wish you stength as you serve children in need.
Dana - Thank you for visiting and for your kind words. I'm glad that the poem touched you and hope that you'll seek out more of Dana Gioia's work.

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